Funkness and all things overcast

Today is a blergh day. The weather is gloomy and I feel the same. Stupid weather adding to my funkness is so stink.



Yep that makes my funkness a little lighter! Bahaha He looks so seedy with that mo!

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I would like people to meet me and not know that my child has a disability until they meet him and see his beautiful almond eyes looking so sparkly at them. I like us to be a normal family and not one that is constantly looking at how hard we have it. I like that my partner has always loved B and not seen him as anything but a normal child. I like that H doesn't see anything but a big brother in B. I like that we all love each other, warts (although we don't technically have any) and all.

Most of the people I have become friends with, through this journey, know that their children have additional needs and that they require extra attention and that it can be draining, however, overall they completely adore their children and what they have brought to their lives. They have grown more, loved more, cried more, been angry more and seen the beauty in the small things more. I love this about them and I love that they have also taught me how to see our life like this.

The way I want our life to be is totally about dealing with what we have. I don't always do it the right way and I do have a tantrum every now and then. I ask for my big break, for millions in my bank account, for smaller thighs, for well behaved children while trying to get the shopping done. For life to not have so many freaking hurdles. But in the last 5 years I have become good at jumping hurdles and knocking down the big bastard of a brick wall that stands in front of me. I try to move through the struggles and know that even though I may not have it right, I have people that love me anyway.

I do find it hard to understand when people don't have the same view as me, but that is about their journey, not mine and I have to try to remember that we all have different ways to deal with life and what we go through.

I am comfortable in my bubble, I like my bubble and how I view most things with in my bubble. I am always open to learning and expanding my bubble although it is a nice place to be most of the time.

So my funkness continues but I am glad of who I am and that I can see the world this way. It is a cushy place to be.

In other news, we move in a week. Eeek!

But we have this to look forward to



and this



These photos really don't give our new adventure the shininess that it deserves!!